girl your beauty

Of course I call you beautiful everyday. I don't know if I told you this but, as I was nominating you for homecoming...I explained to everyone how pretty you were. They knew instantly.Maybe they didn't recognize by name, but they did when i described you. You didn't win of a whim. You won because people like you. So? People called you ugly? Honestly, everyone see's things differently. And I can swear my life upon it, they were only jealous. I cannot fathom any flaw from you. I mean, my god, you get guys when they know you have a boyfriend. Also, not only physically, but emotionally, you're beautiful too. You have this alluring personality that brings people to you. I'm so jealous of that~ But I guess what I think is the most emotionally beautiful thing about you is... how you can make people feel like they're a princess in their own fairy tail, and maybe while their prince isn't being so knight-like, they'll have faith. You made me cry tears of joy with a sentence. A SENTENCE. Maybe it didn't even mean that much to you, but to me? It was life altering. It made me realize so much. I don't want to make a list of reasons why/how you're beautiful. I think I'd exceed to infinite character limit. whether you believe me or not, whether you think I'm saying this because I'm obligated to, whether you think I'm too nice to say this... I'm not. I'm saying this because I mean every single word. Behind every letter next to another to create a word has much more meaning than just that word. You, have been, and always will be, the prettiest girl to me. The most beautiful person I've know. It's in the course of your blood. I know that you're going through shit no child should. But you know what? You put on a front that no one could break. You listen to petty problems of others that don't even compare. When you know assholes are being asses, you don't lie and say they're amazing..you tell them cause you know it's hurting more than just them. Your appearance reminds me of a magazine model. Straight out of hot topic or something. I wish you would listen when people called you cute, pretty, beautiful... it's not out of pity. HAH, NEVER. You're too real. No one would say it out of pity, because when they look at you...that's what they'd say. You're beautiful. Inside and out. And if you dare say other wise... I want you to look in the mirror and smile... :) that's when you're at your best, as if you were to have anything less. You're never not at your best.... but you sparkle when you smile. Thank you for everything. My beautiful best friend. I could never ask for more.

exactly what i thought

People never judge me right. And it makes me so sad in myself. Why can't I fucking be true to someone enough for them to know me? But then on the other hand, why can't they care enough to see I'm just faking it all? Obviously, I need to stop being this person. But I can't. Because as soon as I start being who I really am....everyone starts to look at me weird. I feel outcasted. I feel...guilty. And I revert back. This is why I want to move. This is why I want a new start. People need to stop calling me "nice" or "kind." I'm not. You don't know half the things I really think about you. Yea, I apologize all the time, why? Because you're not fucking willing to. So I'd rather take the blame, because I know somehow, it gets traced to me anyway. If you're one of my close friends, you guys know who I am. So this won't ever apply to you.

last call

Ohhh…. Im so sorry friends dat I dint published time to publish any post..


The reason behind dis is d work n responsiblities on ma shoulder.(I knw it may feel unbelievable to u all u guys).

Nyways the motto, behind dis(publishing my todays blog is to share my yesterdays experince wt u guys)

I was sitting in ma dinning all n don’t knw wht hppnd to ma younger bro he just came n gave me a hug, n he ws there in ma arms for few secs.. I was at a loss.. then I rewinded ma life for few pals n found dat how life is changing slowly.. few years back wen I ws alone der ws no 1 wt me n nw there are lots of people around me… I thought hows dis possible..

N den I knew dat were I ws lacking n where I improved myself in last 2 years…

I was litteraly too irresponsible(n may be im still a lil)

Den how I managed to over cum dis..

N wht next suddenly I got a cal.

I wished hello..

She sd is dis Anand Agrrawal..

I sd yes, bt who dis

I got a rply frm der

She sd im monika..

Nw dis time I ws quite sure dats she is not idiot..

So I got a click dat she is monika 1..

I was just at a loss.. dat it a lil mearly unbelieveable for me to hope a call from her..

Coz we spoked to each other after 6 mnths.n after dat I changed my no too.

She said me from where(facebook) she got ma no. n den she visited ma website n read all ma blog n touched to dem(espeialy to those which I published earlier).

We had a small conversation in between us.. she was sorry for mistakes made from her side..

Bt I was at ice.. I managed the situation.. really yaar never expected dat the situatin will turn upside down

Nyways it was too late for us to go back… n nw as all of u knw im happy doing a lil bt something intresting…Now we both on our tracks n looking forward for a nice future…